Death by suicide and the lives of people affected by addiction and overdose are indicative and prevalent matters for Scotland. I want to contribute to a change in how we understand, accept and heal ourselves, and to encourage the ripple effect of understanding and accepting others as a route to collective healing and evolution for us all.
In September 2019 I spent ten days training as a Shamanic Trance Dance Guide and Guardian, and during this intense experience of blindfolded breathwork and movement, living in community and off the land, I reached a tipping point. My darkness, my trauma, pain, shame and suffering became a dusty cupboard where things are kept until I’m ready to deal with them. That’s it. Nothing sinister or scary, just a holding bay, a pantry, a bookshelf. A much younger part of myself was able to say,”I’m not afraid of the dark”.
I realised that shining a torch into the dark corners of our experiences and memories, inner critics and survival strategies dissolves the power they hold over us. I hope that what I share in the article is useful, thought-provoking and a fitting testament to the memory of my Dad.