PoetryUnknown Hand, 2020

Isn’t This What Each Of Us Does? These thirteen poems explore the dilemmas of my personal growth while ageing within the contexts of a long-distance relationship and a chronic, degenerative condition, labeled by society as a disease. Primarily, therefore, alone. Aloneness heightened by isolation necessitated by Covid-19. I do not want to regret or dwell on the loss of past capabilities. I don’t want to engage in a battle in which the traditional cards predict defeat. I am trying to view this transition as a natural progress in maturing. Neither a denial nor an acceptance of my state but a reframing of it as a transformation that opens as well as closes doors, allowing me to play in different boxes. Self-isolation turned out to be an unexplored and fruitful box. And if denial and acceptance represent my personal scales, then I am not looking for a static equilibrium but rather a productive overall balance created out of a series of imbalances. These ideas provide a framework for choosing how to live and work towards an accommodation of sorts to play the best game I can with the unknown hand I’ve been dealt. Isn’t this what all of us do?