November 20, 2020

How do you express this kind of pain?

Eva MacFarlane

Song/Video‘This Kind Of Pain’, 2020

I wrote this song after finding out my Dad has terminal cancer. I didn’t know how to process the news. I was unable to tell anyone in my family how I was feeling. I was asked how I was doing and I was too destroyed to be able to answer. I wanted my family to know how I felt and so I wrote this song to express my emotions and get my feelings out in the open. A lot of stuff has happened to me in my life. I have really bad PTSD from being at the Manchester Arena Bombing in 2017. Even after being through that and suffering with severe anxiety for years, the news about my Dad has by far been the worst feelings I have ever felt in my life. This song expresses these feelings in a way that I can’t express in a conversation. The thought of losing someone that is such a huge part of my life has scarred me beyond what I ever thought I could feel. This song has helped me keep connected with my family and feel less alone in my feelings. I hope this helps other people in a similar situation.