My self-portrait looks straight on and deeply at both myself and you as the viewer. In seeking self-awareness, I have spent the last two years with this painting, abandoning and returning to it repeatedly. Battling with anxiety and panic attacks, my confidence in myself and my work has wavered, but by continuing to paint I am searching for an understanding of my identity and also hope to connect with others. Putting my own image in the total fore-front of the painting’s focus, I challenge you, the audience to meet my gaze. Your presence as onlooker forms a conversation between us – questioning what emotions are running behind my eyes, who I am, and what experiences have put me here.